MOSAIC OF MY CONSCIOUS

EXPLAINATION

Juggled alongside the rest of my projects, this artwork has been quite the undertaking that involved many different shapes and revisions. Initiated / started around October 13th, 2025, this piece began rather ambitious and grandiose.

Though this was eventually shelved, as it was far too large to be completed in a reasonable fashion that would’ve done this idea justice. Eventually I pivoted to the idea you see now.

The current artwork focuses more on the ideas of Self-concept, specifically the parts of social self. This is represented through the various characters that my friends have created or just simply representations of them. Each person I placed has played an important role in my life, and I personally believe that we are all mosaics of the people we have met. Taking aspects from those around us and incorporating it into ourselves. One other thing to note is the presence of some friends I have made from the internet! I chose to have them in this artwork as I do believe they have had an equal impact on my life as has others.

Alas, my friends are not the focus of this piece, nor is my brother who is placed above and is also the most illuminated. Rather, I am the focus of the piece. I wanted to portray all aspects of myself, the good and the bad. The angle chosen for how I look at the camera is to invoke a parallel to machiavellianism, mainly my facial expression a look of neutral distaste or lack of emotion. I scored a 3.1 in machiavellianism and a 2.8 in narcissism, which also led to making myself the focal point of the piece rather than the previous concept where only my arm would be shown.

Despite usage of the dark triad, I also wanted to represent the other aspects of myself. I am a rather insecure person as I’ve learned through this class, and dislike my face. To show this, I placed a goofy hat / full mask upon my head, lifting it slowly to reveal myself to the viewer. Going back to my CERT scores which was C:18 E:11 R:8 T: 0, I decided to showcase enthusiasm, for within this mask is a bright light that illuminates the surroundings, revealing what would not be able to be seen. The mask also refers back to the self-concept, especially with true-self. A connection to the imposter phenomenon which is something I do struggle with, coupled with the motif of concealing the true self and how I may perceive myself.

Within this piece, as one ascends and goes higher into the void, you may be able to make out various figures, these are negative impacts on my life. People who have hurt me, or feelings and emotions that bog me down. Going from my own personification of depressive ideations or past those who have hurt me deeply to a personification of my religion. I am Catholic, born and raised, I allowed the cross to be the only other light-source in that dark starred abyss, impaling another representation of anxiety. I wont dwell too much on this matter, for not only do I wish to not acknowledge the bestial creature with chains wrapped around its neck, but I would like to also focus on the positives. This is also why I decided to obscure these negative prescences.

EARLY W.I.P